Jade Goody has started planning her own funeral and has joked that she should have a wreath in the shape of a Marmite jar - because she is either loved or hated.
Jade has also cut her hair to a short crop in preparation for chemotherapy, saying: "I'm going to look like a boiled egg!"
The former Big Brother contestant, who has been given a 50-50 chance of survival, said that without the course of radiotherapy and chemotherapy she would be dead by Christmas.
She told OK! magazine: "It (the haircut) makes me feel less of a woman. (But) I don't want to wake up one morning and find clumps of hair all over my bed."
She added: "Most people plan their weddings. But I'm planning my funeral.
"Some people say they don't want people crying, but I want people to cry over me! And I don't want anyone to have a booze up when I'm dead! They should have a cup of tea and be crying!
"I'd want to have an open funeral and let everyone who wanted to come along."
The mother of Bobby, five, and Freddy, three, said she would never allow the event to be filmed on TV, telling the magazine: "I know I have lived most of my life in front of the cameras, but that would be sick."
She said: "I've never been a God person, but now I pray every time I go to bed and say stuff like: 'Let me see my children grow'."